lust for growth • 11th February 2018

The Hidden Truth Behind Why We Really Die

Living is one of the most complex and interesting phenomenons we experience as humans on this planet. In my last post, I dove in to a multitude of topics, one being death. Ironically enough, a childhood friend of mine passed away the very same day that post went live. This happens to me a lot actually. No, not people dying on me, but having to live through concepts I’m learning. In the past, it hasn’t been too difficult for me to write about people dying. Up until the 28th, I had never experi

B+YND • 29th January 2018

How to Live More by Doing Less

As the days go on, many of us find ourselves at a loss. Loss of our purpose, our goals, and most of all - any sense of having it all figured out. We believe that by a certain age, the puzzle pieces of our lives will all form accordingly. The job will come to fruition. We’ll attain the body we have always longed for. The ideal partner will enter our lives. We’ll live in a place that inspires us beyond measure. The problem? Most of us also believe that to receive what we want out of life, we mus

lust for growth • 28th January 2018

The Hard Reality Behind The Law of Attraction

I swear, the moment you become more engulfed in your thoughts, every week feels like you’re making strides in your consciousness. I look back on where I used to be in terms of spirituality and I can’t even put into words how different it all feels in 2018. In the moment, you always think you’re at the peak of your knowledge when just around the corner is another mind-blowing occurrence. This is why I recommend journaling almost daily – either in the morning or before bed. Your journals become

lust for growth • 21st January 2018

The Truth About Getting What We Want

It amazes me how simple life is yet we do nothing but complicate it. I fell in to a pity spiral this week because I’ve been trying to manifest two things in to my life: love and a job. I sit here trying to be okay with where I am and all my mind does is gravitate towards the things I want but don’t yet have. I brace myself for the disappointment of not getting what I want before I’ve even been proven wrong. In my mind, if I’m prepared for the worst case scenario, it won’t hurt as bad if it ha

lust for growth • 14th January 2018

The Secret to Figuring Out If You're on the Right Path

I wish I could shake myself out of my mind sometimes. It constantly feels like different aspects of my mind are going against each other. There’s the part of me that loves to be spontaneous; she doesn’t care about what the future holds, she’s down for any and all plans, and is a complete open book. She’s receptive to the world around her and in turn, people are even more receptive towards her. Then there’s the part that needs to know everything; she needs a life plan, a structured schedule to

lust for growth • 8th January 2018

The Difference Between Realism and Pessimism

It’s crazy how much can change in a day. This past weekend, I was a complete hermit due to the current cold front on the East Coast. It’s been impossible to want to leave my house with temperatures ranging from 18 to -10. I know, I know, we’re no Utah or Idaho, but the conditions this year have felt brutal. I’m normally someone who prefers the cold to scorching hot temperatures, but this year, I’ve never felt more related to those who deal with the winter blues. It’s a new feeling. I used to

lust for growth • 7th January 2018

How to Heal Your Relationships With Others

We’re only a mere seven days in to 2018 and I feel nothing but a weight off my shoulders. I didn’t realize how heavy the past year was weighing on me until the moment the ball dropped and I actually shed a few tears. It felt like letting go of all my pent-up issues from 2017 despite nothing changing but the time. However, I soon realized that a change of the year doesn’t mean everything I experienced last year falls away. I ended up emotional by night on New Year’s Day. I was taken back becaus

lust for growth • 24th December 2017

How to Live Our Lives in Spite of Fear

Fear has been something on my mind recently. If you read my last post on love, you’ll already know I tend to have a strong aversion when it comes to getting close to people (especially romantically.) It’s as if I build up this theoretical wall between myself and those around me. My inner being craves this closeness with others yet I’ve become so stuck in routine. I think about all the things I’d be giving up by getting close to someone while ignoring anything I could possibly gain. It’s the l

lust for growth • 8th December 2017

For Those Who Don't Know How to Love

Today has been an emotional one. Not so much tears and breakdowns, but my energy felt completely off. I woke up a little sporadic and I didn’t have time for my morning routine (which always throws me off) but I still felt fine when I walked out the door. However, once I began my commute to work, I could feel my emotions like a ton of bricks. Music has such an effect on my mood and for all of 2017, I coped with a lot of my feelings through lyrics. I’ve felt connection to music since I was 12, b

lust for growth • 7th December 2017

How to Know You're Making the Right Decision

I have been debating how to start this post, but I know no matter how I word it, everything is still going to pour out jumbled. So instead of trying to create a perfect narrative, I figured I’ll see what flows out of me. No plan or new job lined up, a lack of savings, and all in all, not a clue what is next for me. I’m lucky in the sense I have a support system to lean on during the transitional period yet the not knowing eats away at the ‘need-to-control’ aspect of me. Since I was eighteen, I

lust for growth • 26th November 2017

Why We Never Feel Satisfied With The Present Moment

I came to strange realization today – well, not really strange, but interesting. You see, throughout my day-to-day life, I find myself running around like a maniac. Most weekdays, I’m busy from sun up ’til sun down. I wake up, work for ten hours, go to spin class, come home, and repeat. Granted each day is always a little different yet the premise is the same; I have a set routine. However, the routine is always leading up to the main event: coming home to no priorities. It’s on my mind all da

lust for growth • 11th November 2017

A Post About Relationships You've Never Read Before

It’s about 50 degrees in my house right now so as I’m writing to you – I’m laying in bed with a solid three layers of clothes and blankets. I have my hot coffee next to me, a sleeping cat on the opposite side, and not a single priority today. I woke up around 10am because for the first time in forever, I went out last night. I went to an event called Emo Nite which if you’re not familiar, consists of twenty-somethings coming together to belt early 2000’s angsty pop punk anthems. It was incredib

lust for growth • 4th November 2017

How to Release Control and Open Your Heart

It’s funny. I start a lot of these off with apologizing for my absence which ironically has a lot to do with what I want to talk about today. I took a step back from writing at the end of October – not just on this site, but in my journals as well. For months, I had been adamant about writing my morning pages, no matter what time I had to be awake. I would wake up at 3am to go through a morning routine of journaling, meditating, breakfast, and getting ready – when I didn’t have work until 7am.

lust for growth • 15th October 2017

Why Nothing Ever Works To Feel Better

There’s just something about this month that resonates with me on a level I can’t even put into words. The coziness of a warm cup of coffee, burning candles, crisp leaves, spooky movies and television – the list could go on. I started watching Stranger Things again today and I don’t know why I stopped last year. It’s the perfect amount of eerie yet also comedic and interesting. I see what the hype was about. Today was a day spent soaking in all the Fall things – well, this weekend as a whole a

lust for growth • 8th October 2017

The Reason We Feel Disconnected From Ourselves

It’s been a relatively relaxing weekend – one of those where you just come back to yourself and reflect. To be completely honest, most of my weekends go this way. I work throughout the week and socialize then, but once the weekend comes around, I feel really drawn to being alone. I’ve accepted that about myself, however, I know as a species, connection is vital to humans. So I can’t help but feel guilty that I’m not putting myself out there 100% of the time. People will ask how my weekend was

lust for growth • 6th October 2017

The Recovery Diaries | Why Can't We Lose The Weight?

For the past three years, my mind has been warped by food. It started with diet mentality, restriction, and binging to full-blown orthorexia. I’ve touched on this briefly already, but even though I’ve been vegan for the past eighteen months, my diet mentality never left. I thought going vegan healed me completely only to realize I only felt safe with my three go-to meals. Oats for breakfast, rice bowl for lunch, and potatoes + veggies and hummus for dinner. I’d throw in some fruit, dates, pean

lust for growth • 2nd October 2017

Oneness | How We Can Rise Above in a State of Tragedy

When I read about the Vegas shooting this morning, my stomach dropped. I wish I could say I was in shock, but given the current events of the past few years, shock has become nothing but a numb emotion. It hurts to say that, but the fact that many can say the same breeds hope within me. Hope that this time will be the one to change the laws. Hope that this time we can actually begin having a conversation about gun reform without attacking one another. One witness account after another keeps sh

lust for growth • 30th September 2017

Why Finding Happiness Feels Like a Constant Chase

I don’t even know where to begin. September has been a life-changing month when it comes to my perception of life and wow, all I want to do is share it with you. If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know that I used to run a blog last year called Kimtells. It was more of the same of what I’m already sharing here, but a lot more raw. I had a series of posts that were completely stream-of-consciousness. The blog has since been removed, but every day on my Timehop app, I’m reminded of

lust for growth • 23rd September 2017

The Healing Trap: When Self-Love Turns to Suffering

As of late, my mind has been at a war. You see, for the past year, I’ve spent a lot of time trying to heal my childhood traumas. I’ve learned just how detrimental that time in our life can be; it’s essentially the breeding ground for our belief systems (for more on this, I recommend checking out Teal Swan‘s work.) I can say whole-heartedly that 2017 has been a year of healing. I’m more emotional than I’ve been in my entire life and while I initially rejected this, I know these emotions need to

lust for growth • 17th September 2017

The Reason Productivity Leaves You Feeling Unfulfilled

I know it is only September, but my mind has already begun reflecting on 2017. I look at where it began and I can say for certain, I’m nowhere near where I thought I’d be. I’m sure a lot of us can say the same. To my surprise, I’m happy I can say that. My mind used to be clouded with to-do lists, thinking of new workout plans, new writing schedules, but most of all, it just wanted to feel productive. I used to believe that if I wasn’t actively always making changes in my life, I wasn’t truly l